We often take the little moments in life for granted.
It's Christmas time! Christmas is in 4 short days! We've made a Christmas slideshow for the past few years. Tonight I was adding pictures from last year on it.(I'm crying as I'm typing this) We always put the song "We Wish You A Merry Christmas" at the end so I had to add songs before the pictures I added of last year so it could be at the end. The song "Christmas Just Ain't Christmas Without The Ones You Love" was playing. As it played I saw smiles and hugs and love and, most importantly, I saw my grandfather Cleve, or as I call him Poppa. July 1st was one year that he had been passed on so this is our 2nd Christmas without him. In the pictures with him everyone just seemed so much happier and together. It's like our rock is gone. The man that held us together is no longer here. I just wish I could see those pretty blue eyes on Christmas Eve like it's always been. I wish I could watch him open presents again. If his death has taught me anything it's to always, ALWAYS spend time with your loved ones. I was supposed to go to his house the night before he passed but I didn't because I was "tired". I beat myself up about it all the time because my brother got to spend that time with him, but I didn't. I wish all the time that instead of getting angry about sitting there watching countless boxing matches with him that I would enjoy that time spent with him. I would do absolutely ANYTHING to watch another boxing match with him.
My grandmother, or as I call her Granny Alice, died over 3 years ago. We NEVER missed getting together at Christmas when she was still alive. Now it just seems like it's so hard to get everyone together. I mean, a lot of people do come over, but it's just not the same without her silly, goofy, smiling self there. My dads family is quite different from my moms. We crack jokes and have a good time with daddy's family so it's hard not having her there making a silly face in every picture or sticking her tongue out. I miss her oh so much. I didn't get to see her a lot so I treasure the memories I have with her. They all were happy. She was the rock of the family on daddy's side of the family. So the 2 rocks of my family are gone.
So, this Christmas, don't fight and argue with your family because you're so stressed out over how much money you've spent or because one person isn't getting to come. Enjoy the time you have with them because you never know when it can be taken away!
Merry Christmas!
